Coming Clean

New job by normal metrics is going well. Staying on or ahead of schedule. Slowly learning the business and able to help other people out with their walk. No stress.

But I find the Blues trying to tug me down. First, I’m not in the thick of things. I don’t mind avoiding the politics that entails at.all. But I miss the perspective, the freedom, and the responsibility that it brings. With time I’ll likely get pulled into the inner-circles more, but for now … I feel under utilized and a bit lost in the woods.

Second, and more importantly, I had a lot of friends at the old job. I had a regular lunch bunch of 4 co-workers with a not-uncommon crowd of 10. We were young, we were smart, we all had a lot in common. It was good. Now, there are only 2 co-workers I see with regularity, and while we get along fine, it’s not the same camaraderie. Add to that that I don’t have much of a social life outside of work due to kids, church, and giving my wife a reprieve from child care … and I find myself feeling rather lonely.

Didn’t expect that. Wonder how I’ll fix it.