I feel like Ashley Stockingdale. If you haven’t had the pleasure of reading “What a Girl Wants” then this may seem a bit confusing, so, to completely understand go read the book then read this entry. (All italic is quotes from the book) Yup, sorry that’s right, you gotta do some homework first. When telling others to read “What a Girl Wants” two things were said to me when they finished. Ether “Ashley reminds me so much of you” or “If you wrote a book, this is what I think it would be like.” Now, I don’t know if those are complements or not, but I love the book, so saying its something they think I could write it, that makes me smile. Ashley Stockingdale is a great character and I related with her a lot, to remind someone of a book character, that could be both good and bad I suppose. I’m going to just take it as a good thing.

The reason I am reminded of Ashley Stockingdale in my life over the past few months is with her romantic life. I’m still so surprised at the events over the past months when it has come to guys. I’ll admit, unlike Ashley, I was content on being single. I wasn’t looking and had a wonderful roomie “Brea screams and grabs my hands and we jump like a pair of pogo sticks. Before we remember we are refined Christian women who would never do such a thing.”who encouraged my joy of singleness. I lived like a single person and it was great. “I’m generally very happy being single until I’m reminded how awful it is by well-meaning friends and family.”I don’t think I ever felt the need to be with a person, which is good and bad. Good in the sense that I didn’t need someone to be happy. I was finding my happiness in this season the Lord had given me. “I let go of my scarf and from my rearview mirror watch it drift on the wind. Then, I downshift into fourth and punch it. I am free! I’m not single for a reason. I’m single because that’s God’s will for me.”Bad because, well, I was finding it easier to just enjoy stupid crushes and that be the end of it. I even went on a couple of causal dates (so I think, the words “may I take you out” or “would you like to go on a date” never came out of his mouth, but he did drive and pay) with someone I barely knew. I was told it was fine because that’s how to do it. And by “it” I mean dating. Well, I never was real excited about the whole process. Id always liked being friends with a guy first, skip to like the 10th date as some would say. If I was excited at all during that time, it was because a boy was interested in me. Girls get excited about this even if they weren’t really thinking about it. So guys, even if a girl doesn’t think the same of you, please know its nice to have someone think of us that way, I promise you this.

Ashley has no attention from men for ages. Then, all of a sudden, three are grasping for her attention. Who does she end up with?*Spoiler if you have not read the book* The one everyone hopes for, Seth. He’s that long time friend who she’s always had a thing for but never would admit it.”We immediately feel the chemistry the two of us don’t want to admit to. At least I feel it, so I don’t see how he could miss it.”He’s not as good looking as the others, but that doesn’t matter in the end. He’s the one who she commits to in a dating relationship. (Can I just tell you how happy it makes me they end the story with them DATING and not getting married like most Christian novels.) He has wooed her above the other guys. She may have kissed another guy on their first date, very unlike her (like me with the causal dating) but Seth is the one with the girl after all the spark has died down. That says a lot.

Now, over the past month I have been experiencing and discovering something that sounds like something you read in a book. And for me to live a story is something Ive always wanted, I mean, I don’t mind the fact Ive been called a fictional character! But Id have to say that I beat Ashley Stockingdale’s story. I have had the pleasure to be a part of someone’s life whom I was merely honored to be his friend. He loves to make me laugh and I haven’t laughed like this in ages. He respects me through his actions towards me, which I can not thank the Lord enough for. I smile as I type this, “He laughs and winks at me. Its a single move that clearly wasn’t practiced. Its just normal. He owns way too much charm.” but that’s the effect he has on me. My heart just smiles making it that it seeps through me I guess. So, in the same way I cant wait for “She’s Out of Control” to come out (which is about Ashley’s new life dating Seth), I cant wait to see what God has in store for Jason Windsor and I in this next “book” of ours we have to share.