Jason has a CD that he made with his band Songs of Water . Its an instrumental record, so there are no words which rather bothered me at first to be perfectly honest. But over time it has grown on me and I enjoy it quite a lot. I was listening to it on my drive home from a rather long day today. A sense of bittersweetness came over me as the first track played. It took me back to the feelings that I had the first time I heard the song, which is the first day Jason and I met while driving around the streets of Charlotte, North Carolina. It made me miss him very much but also was a sweet moment because the new car smell feel doesn’t happen every day in a comfortable relationship like ours.
If you know me at all, you know music has that kind of effect on me. Ive mentioned before that when Jason and I first started dating we had a “heated discussion” about him thinking rather poorly of my music. I hold a lot of deep sentimental feelings to songs more so that the quality of the actually music. Like today, Carla left me a message saying she had heard the song “Complicated” by Avril Lavigne on the radio and it reminded her of when I tired to make her sing it on our drive from Jackson, Mississippi. I remember this time too, but the was a reason to why I was making her sing. For some random reason when that song was fleshly a radio hit, I called Sarah and left a message of me singing along (read: squeaking) to the radio. Ever since, when ether of us hear it on the radio, we call each other and sing. Its not a great song, its just fun and always holds that great memory for me.
I love the way God made our minds to work like this. I know for me, sound and scenes are the two things that connect memories in my mind. Which is quite common, but usually scent is the stronger of the two. But forgotten feelings tend to rise at the sound of familiar notes to a old song than say the smell of something. “Love Is Different” by Derek Webb reminds me of the time period right after the ending of my longest relationship. “Shiny Shoes” by Sandra McCracken reminds me of a broken friendship I wish I still had. “Somewhere Only We Know” by Keane reminds me of Jason being in California. “Awakening” by Sara Groves reminds me of when a coworker of mine at GSH just left and the struggle I had with it. “Hard to Get” by Rich Mullins (sang by Tara Leigh Cobble ) reminds me of my walk a lot of times. And the list goes on and on. Hard feelings or sweet ones, music can shake me to at least ponder on feelings I didnt realize I had camping out in my heart. Wheather the root of the song was meant for the glory of God, it usually starts a conversation with me and Him which I am ever greatful for.