I had planned to write about all the things I am thankful this past year and post it yesterday on the day of Thanksgiving (how was your Thanksgiving by the way? I hope really well). I suppose I still could, giving thanks isn’t just about one day a year. But I guess the moment has come and gone for me on the post. My pastor said years ago, if we spent just 5 minutes a day thanking God for things we are thankful in our life, how different would our day be? Spiritual or not, it does help one point towards the blessings in ones life instead of thing of all the things they have to do when they really don’t want to. But as a Christian, even just muselling with the things that I am thankful for especially this year, a great deal of joy came over me. God has showered with me with many blessings for nothing I have done to deserve them (one of the deepest truths we could know).

As many of you know, I adore Sandra McCracken’s music; she’s probably my favorite singer/song writer. Her long awaited album Best Laid Plains was great and worth the wait. But of course, I wanted more. She recently put together a collection of redone hymns onto an album and it arrived at my door step a couple days ago. I had been listen to the song “In the Secret of His Presences” on her myspace on repeat while I waited for the album. Even now, every listen I hear something different. Part of a line from the song that has stuck out between the beautiful violin and banjo melody are theses lyrics:

“Go and hide beneath His shadow”

There is so much power to me in those few words. I’m a big wimp, I will just own up to that right now. A lot of things scare me, even if they maybe good for me. So, my first thought is how can I hide my fear. Hiding is the biggest game we play from each other, this is no secret (just not something we talk about). Especially when one thing on top of another thing seems to be going wrong I want to find some place to hide to get away from the world gone bad. Being a Christian and in a rut of sorts you get all the Christianize things you are supposted to take as encouragement when in fact you smile on the outside and curse all that you know to be true on the inside. I know Jesus has everything under control, that doesn’t explain the pain that’s happening right now to me. I believe He loves me and protects me but it really doesn’t feel like that right now. I KNOW.

The idea of running (my version of “go”) to Him to hide, in a safe place such as His shadow is a place I can get behind. As I do so I realize as I step into His shadow this is a very scary place all the while so safe. Reminds me of the famous C.S. Lewis quote in regards to Aslan “He’s not safe, but He is good.” That is a hard concept for me to grasp but with the idea of finding a place to hide in Him is one of the most simple and most comforting things I can be reminded of.