On Our Way To Crazy

Hello, normal life. Nice to see you.

I feel like our summer is finally winding down. I thought that school starting would make a difference, but I feel like the last four weeks have been busier than ever. We’ve had friends in town, one or both of us has been traveling almost every weekend, we’ve had tons of events in the evenings. Life has been all over the place.

Today I went to the grocery store for what felt like the first time in ages to just buy regular food to feed us for the week. Not a quick trip because we’re out of milk, or a huge load of hot dogs and sodas for the youth group, or eighteen kinds of fruit to make salsa for a party. Just normal lunch and dinner stuff. We cooked tonight. I was a little worried we’d forgotten how to turn on the stove.

I love being busy. I fee like busy means I’m doing something right, you know? The youth group has so much going on! The band is in town! We have so many obligations! But I also think I cling to my business (busy-ness? Neither one of those looks right.) because it makes me feel important. Like I’m really DOING something. And maybe I’m doing it incorrectly, or I’m focusing on the wrong things, or there’s some gaping hole in my life that needs some work. But I can’t think about that now. I’m so busy.

So I’m mostly looking forward to a bit of a slower period. The school year doesn’t slow down my work, but it does shift the hours around a bit and gives me some structure to my days. Aaron has traveled a lot with the guys this summer, but that will slow down for the fall. We will be back in a regular routine. The Cowboys are back in our lives. Fall is very exciting.

And I have some things to look at. Some gaps to fill. Some patterns to re-evaluate. I mostly want to take care of the things I’ve been glossing over all summer. Mostly. The rest of me just wants to eat soup and be cozy and push them into next year. We’ll see how it goes.