On Our Way To Crazy

You can be who you are without wearing it like a badge everywhere you go. Don’t be in such a rush to define yourself for people before they get a chance to find out for themselves. Be careful of shouting from the rooftops all the things you wish you were as though they were true… when it comes to light that they aren’t you will lose all the people you wanted so badly to like you.

Just be. Let it be confusing. Let it be gray. Let it be undefined. Even let it be ugly. Let it ebb and flow and change. Maybe those convictions you’re holding onto so tightly today will knock you over tomorrow. Maybe you’re not the person you thought you were after all. Maybe that’s okay.

Remember who you were ten years ago? Remember how sure you were that you had it together and knew how it worked? Remember how different everything turned out to be? Your future self will look back at you today and think the same things. And she should.

The things you’re experiencing now don’t negate the things you experienced then. I know it feels like they do. You’re not undoing them, you’re building on them. Growing from them. They always told you life was complicated. Now you know they were right.

Keep moving forward. Except for the days when you’re moving backward, or being pushed sideways, or standing perfectly still. All those days, those directions, those loop-arounds and double-backs and repeats… they’re getting you somewhere. Somewhere you want to be. Even if you don’t quite know where that is. Yet.