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4/30/2004

muckraking

Filed under: grace and faith,musical notes — christiana @ 12:46 pm

i’m getting behind on this blogging stuff already. this week has been a bit crazy for me . . . but i’ll start where i left off last week. patty griffin was amazing–she only played a few songs to a big crowd inthe border’s store, but she is just captivating. i could listen to her sing for hours. days even. weeks maybe. she stayed afterwards to greet and sign, i got a good picture but the scanner is giving me trouble so i can’t post it yet.

then, the conference at church. amazing. we went from the depth of our sin–the great need we have for forgiveness to the means of our forgiveness to the response to that forgiveness in our relationships with others.

seriously, if you have time, listen to the sunday services that Sinclair Ferguson preached to wrap up the weekend. i think at least the sunday morning one is up already. in the evening service, his opening example was of the muckraker who christiana (yes that’s where my parents got my name) came across in her travels in the second book of Pilgrim’s Progress. She and her four sons are at the house of the interpreter, where they are shown to various rooms inhabited by different characters. In one room is a man raking filth, over and over again, so intent on his awful work that he does not notice the one who holds a golden crown over his head in free exchange for his muckrake. christiana’s response is “o, deliver me from the muckrake!” dr. ferguson went on to expound on the first eleven verses of romans 5–his main point was that we do not realize the crown of glory that we have right now. that we have a true hope–not one that will shame us. one that christ died to give us, one that cannot be taken away, one that shapes the way we live now.

this week’s plumbing problems in my kitchen and my dentist appointment are small in comparison to the grace given to me in the death of Christ.

4/22/2004

She leaves her fingerprints everywhere

Filed under: grace and faith,musical notes — christiana @ 9:06 am

patty griffin does, at least. i’m starting my weekend early tonight by going to see patty perform an in store show at border’s downtown. her new album just came out, so she’s supposed to be playing songs in support of that. i’ve seen her perform before and she blows me away, so i’m interested to see her in a smaller venue, with a few less frills.
i’ll post my thoughts tomorrow or next week . . .

the rest of the weekend is full up, as well. my church is hosting its annual Philadelphia Conference on Reformation Theology. The topic this year is Forgiveness and the speakers include Jerry Bridges, Sinclair Ferguson, Michael Horton, Rick Phillips, and Philip Ryken. As part of the church choir, I get to go for free because we participate in the music Friday night, and do a sacred concert Saturday night before the evening session. I’ve gone to these conferences fairly regularly since college (with a break while I lived in NC), and have always been incredibly blessed. It’s always a time of rich teaching, warm fellowship, and great hymn singing. My first conference back in 1992, I think, included JI Packer and John Gerstner (who was fine until his last sermon on the “50 reasons why I am a Calvinist”–that is up there as perhaps the worst thing to pass for a sermon in Tenth’s pulpit that I ever heard).

And, I just realized that I switched from no caps to proper capitilization somewhere in the midst of that post . . . my English teacher ways are popping out all over.

4/16/2004

These Hands

Filed under: musical notes — christiana @ 8:18 am

i’ve always been a lyrics-oriented listener of songs. (i think this is why i love hymns so much more than praise choruses. ) really, when i buy a new cd, the first thing i do while i’m listening to it is pull out the insert and read through the lyrics. i’m no poet myself, but i deeply appreciate songwriters who craft their words with painstaking care. they allow me to step into their thoughts for a brief moment, or tell me a story in a way i’ve never heard, and these are rare gifts.

this song is one of the many reasons i love listening to Eric Peters’
music. i get emotional just reading the lyrics.

These Hands

does anyone here remember Wilton Reeves?
does anyone here remember his sweet wife?
made a humble home in south Louisiana
he must have crossed these fields a thousand times

he held her shrivelled hands near his body
he lifted up her useless, withered feet
it’s hard when you hold the hand of struggle
but when you love there’s no way to retreat

these eyes have seen two wars…more than most men
but these hands have longed to hold your figure,
have you touch me with your fingers
and i could fall apart deep within your hands

they took their vows before the planting season
in 1901 there was no time for grieving
she never asked for any of the reasons
he never looked for his within the bottle

what he treasured most of all was giving
he’d kneel down at her side to kiss her cheek
it’s easy when you’ve held the hand of mercy
and when you love there is no way to leave

these eyes have seen two wars…more than most men
but these hands have longed to hold your figure,
have you touch me with your fingers
and i could fall apart deep within your hands

does anyone here remember Wilton Reeves?

4/13/2004

more of the past

Filed under: family — christiana @ 8:48 am

almost a year ago, i redesigned my bedroom. it had awful mauve wallpaper, terrible grey carpet, and was just ugly. i took down the wallpaper, ripped up the carpet (to find lovely hardwood floors beneath), and repainted and finished the walls with a faux fresco look. so my room is really a sunny, orangey color. at that point in the redecorating process, however, i ran out of steam. i did buy black frames with white mats and hung them around the room, but have been planning for over a year to get some great black and white photos to put in the frames. i am finally on my way to accomplishing this! i took some old pictures from my mom’s side of the family, scanned them in, and am having prints of various sizes made.

here’s one of my grandmother and her sisters that i love:
berta, kay, and pauline

and here’s one of my great-great grandfather, logging for the railroads in british columbia in the 1890′s:

4/12/2004

death and . . .

Filed under: General — christiana @ 11:35 am

once again, i’ve waited til the last possible moment to do my taxes. i’ve avoided them this year because i made some changes last year and haven’t really figured out how they will affect my tax-filing. i refinanced my house, switched from a traditional to roth IRA, and changed some other investments. plus, i’m trying to use these new-fangled computer tax programs, and they ask me all these irrelevant questions, but never ask the ones that (to me at least it seems) would make a difference. i’m actually worried that i’m not paying the government enough.

i really should have started this in february.

4/8/2004

behind a frowning providence

Filed under: grace and faith,musical notes — christiana @ 4:45 pm

william cowper is one of my favorite hymnwriters. he penned the words (i’m quoting from memory here–so forgive me if I’ve put the stanzas inthe wrong order):

God moves in a mystrious way, His wonders to perform.
He plants His footsteps in the sea, and rides upon the storm.

Deep in unfathomable mines of never failing skill,
He treasures up His bright designs and works His sovereign will.

His purposes shall ripen fast, unfolding every hour.
The bud may have a bitter taste, but sweet will be the flower.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense, but trust Him for His grace.
Behind a frowning providence, He hides a smiling face.

Blind unbelief is sure to err, and scan his work in vain.
God is His own interpreter and He will make it plain.

i think this was one of the first hymns i learned by heart. (“a mighty fortress” probably wins the prize for the very first). i never meant to memorize them, but it just happened. i used to love to request this one in church when we had “favorites night. ” at the time of my putting these words in my head for good, i’m sure i had little idea of their meaning. in fact, i remember just liking the way “unfathomable” ran over my tongue, sometimes tripping a bit before catching up to “mines.” and i liked the tune we sang it to, and tried to learn to play it on the piano as soon as i could.

but now, the reasons i love it go deeper. by no means has my life been a difficult one. sure, i’ve had the occasional sad breakup, the loss of a close relative, the tough decision to make, but i’ve never struggled the way william cowper did–battling depression his entire life yet clinging ever so tightly to the truth of grace. still, i’ve see God’s hand of guidance, moving me from place to place, putting people in my life to challenge and grow me.

providence is a strange thing. it is comforting in difficulty, to know that He is in control and is working all to His glory. i get frustrated by it as well, wanting to be in the seat of power, wrestling against the place God has given me. then lines like “Judge not the Lord by feeble sense, but trust Him for His grace” come to me and i am reminded of His goodness and love in every situation, whether i feel happy or not.

4/5/2004

behind the scenes

Filed under: musical notes — christiana @ 2:25 pm

of a concert . . . it’s becoming one of my favorite experiences. I never thought I’d even consider promoting a singer-songwriter concert, especially at my church, which is pretty focused on maintaining traditional worship (a focus for which I am quite thankful, by the way). But, last September I worked with Eric Peters to bring him to my church, and the response was really great. It’s a bit of work, but the payoff is worth it. I don’t want to make a huge habit of it, but anytime Eric asks, I think I will be willing to do it. So, on Saturday, we did another show.

To be honest, I was pretty stressed out about the show a week ago. I felt that I hadn’t done enough to promote it, the sound stuff wasn’t finalized til a week before the show, I had other stuff both for church and for work on my mind, and I just didn’t know if it was going to happen well. However, all was well. Simon, a guy I had never met, came to set up sound, which he did wonderfully. My friend Jeff graciously agreed to run the sound during the show, and Eric and Gabe set almost everything up before either Jeff or Simon arrived. On this two week tour, Eric was joined by Gabe Scott, musician extraordinaire, and all around nice guy (he toured with Andrew Peterson for five years and is now working with Bebo Norman) . In the past when I’ve seen Eric perform, he’s been solo, and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed it. But Gabe’s guitar, lap steel, dobro, accordion, and backing vocals added a whole new level to the concert experience.

Here’s the rundown of my day. I was already at church because we had a women’s breakfast that morning, which was excellent! Then, I headed upstairs to the music office to help organize the tickets for our 175th anniversary concert at the Kimmel Center. I even solved a few problems along the way. My friend Sharon and I then went for a little walk around center city, stopping at capogiro, an adorable place that makes the best gelato you will have outside of Italy. Truly. They make about 35 flavors each day, from burnt caramel to avocado to cactus pear to bitter chocolate to grapefruit. The hardest part is deciding which two flavors to get on my cone. I went with cactus pear (mainly because it was the brightest pink I had ever seen in gelato) and pistachio (which is salty and sweet like real pistachios—not like the fake bright green sweet flavor you usually get). Sharon had bourbon butterscotch and mocha, for those keeping score. Then, back to the church, where the catering company who had been feeding the extras for the new Cameron Diaz movie filming in town was clearing out. I’m telling you, it was an exciting day—even before the concert. :)

Eric and Gabe showed up around 4pm and we unloaded all their stuff and headed upstairs where they immediately began searching through the back closet, where all the sound stuff is kept (in not so clearly marked disorder). Seriously, who does that? Comes for a show and starts setting up the sound stuff on their own? These guys are great. Humble men, who love jesus, who play and sing so well, who are so gracious to everyone even though they just spent five hours on the Pennsylvania turnpike. Perhaps this is why Sharon told me on Sunday that she understands now why I travel around to see these musicians. Anyway, Sharon and I sat around feeling somewhat useless (since we know nothing about sound setup), although we did set up merch, so that was one accomplishment. And, we thoroughly enjoyed the hour long sound check, which is really almost as much fun as the show itself, or at least make me appreciate the show even more. Then, we headed over to get cheesesteaks, because when one visits Philadelphia, one must have cheesesteaks. And, Gabe, although he’d been to Philly before, had never had one. And, yes, they are better with ketchup for those who wonder. And, no, it’s not worth it to order them outside this region.

We headed back in plenty of time, and heard the story of Gabe and his fiancĂ©e on the way back, while Eric was on the phone with his wife Danielle. I was a little worried at about 7:15 when no one had shown up . . .I took them downstairs to see the sanctuary. The lights weren’t on, so we could only see by the street light and moonlight coming through all the windows, but it’s such a beautiful room. By 7:25 (for a 7:30 start) there were about five people there, but in the next ten minutes, people jus streamed in. I have to remind myself that getting into the city and finding parking always takes people a little longer than they expect. We ended up with a few over 60. Not as big as the last time but we were also competing against the final four.

Gina Campbell, a friend who goes to Tenth, opened with her band, and warmed the crowd up well. Like Gabe said, “Gina looks perfectly normal, and then she starts singing and she’s got this cool funky voice.” It’s true–she’s putting out a cd in the next few months, and it should be a good one. Then, Eric (with Gabe for most songs) came up and played a great set, with a few minor sound issues.
Clenched Fist
My Tripwire
The Ending
Mary (A Husband’s Lament)
September Sunday
These Hands
In the Meantime
Love is Real
Waterloo (”a little predestination . . .if you believe in that”)
Little by Little Things
These Three Remain
I Know the Mountains
May Your Tenderness
Then an encore of Recovery and Dust to Dust (this one they hadn’t performed together before, but it was wonderful!).

They had to head off to Baltimore for a morning concert for Eric and a morning flight for Gabe, so didn’t have as much time to hang out as usual after the cleanup, but it was still a great night!

4/1/2004

as time goes by

Filed under: General — christiana @ 8:46 am

last night, i had an evening at home for the first time in three weeks.

my house is quiet these days since my roommate is in Africa finishing up a two month medical rotation, but last night was the first time i really had a chance to enjoy the solitude. i spent a good hour, maybe two, looking for my passport. i cannot find that thing! i’m heading to turkey in june and i have to locate it soon. in the process of looking for it, i ended up in piles of old letters, souvenirs from past trips, pictures, concert stubs . . . and i was transformed into a sentimental version of myself. i also wondered–how long should i keep some of these things?

pictures, for example. if i took the time to go through them carefully and just save the few that are really meaningful, put them in an album or two and just pitch the rest, then i wouldn’t end up spending an hour looking through them every time i run into them. but, then i’d also lose the fun of re-discovery that comes every time i do spend that hour.

letters, i think i’m much less likely to destroy. i have some from friends that i’m really not in touch with anymore, from past relationships, from family, from friends who wrote kind notes after my grandmother’s death. all of those i want to save. it seems somehow that the best characteristics of people come out in letters. i read the letters and even a few old emails that i printed out and i really only remember the good times. that doesn’t mean i didn’t have tears in my eyes last night as i remembered my grandmother, my friends, but they were good tears.

and i was glad i was alone.

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