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word of the day: ceteris paribus
sometimes i cry while i’m watching a live dvd of a really good band. why you ask? well, i’m insanely jealous of their job. they routinely rock people’s faces off…for a living. i mean, what more could you want? plus, they’re just so good that my emotions get blown away. what bands do i speak of? well, a short list would be pearl jam, dave matthews band, coldplay, u2, jeff buckley (not a band…but…he counts…)…the list could grow to infinity. and i don’t even want to get into the feelings i develop at an amazing live show. i was near giddy seeing thursday and juliana theory; murder by death was, in a word, a-freakin’-mazing, and there are many, many other nights were i have felt a well of emotion bubble up inside of me while watching the band onstage. and then when i’m playing a show, i just can’t help but laugh sometimes from the sheer joy of it all. it seriously overwhelms me. it drives me. my energy is at its peak when we take the stage and i hear the first chords of our opener, and it lasts until the last chord dies off. when i’m on stage, nothing else in the world matters to me; i’m just up there having the time of my life, hopefully showing the audience a good time, as well. i don’t know where i’m trying to go with this. i just want to be in a band that people love to listen to. not so that i’m famous, but so that i can see people’s faces being rocked to the hilt every night. that’s my dream.
Even though I’ve only experienced what you talk about a few times (having never been in an actual “band” outside of worship team), I know the feeling. It is indeed intoxicating.
Was just listening to a recording of a live Eddie from Ohio show. They’re one of those hundreds of acts who just make enough scratch to get out on the road once again, but have never become “famous” enough to not worry about finances. Just before the encore, the leader said, “You know, these same four people you see up here have been doing this for eight years…and it never ever gets old”
I think you definitely have the heart to be a rockstar…and I think that is one of the most necessary qualities. If you don’t love that, then you won’t be able to succeed and persevere enough to get to that point.
great post man. i go to concerts all the time, and i can only imagine how great it feels to have the crowd rolling with every song. i remember a pearl jam show in ’98 at the end of ‘alive’ and the entire crowd was pumping their fists to the “yeah….yeah….yeah” part. it was amazing. i was again in that kind of atmosphere in radiohead. the crowd was so loud you couldn’t think, you were just in the moment. i am envious of those who get to perform, that just is so beyond my comprehension of fun.