me again
By david On March 15th, 2005i just filled out a ridiculously long survey…and then it got deleted. and i don’t want to do it all again. so i’ll just write about something else. i wish i had a girlfriend. this is selfish, i know. and what do i want a girlfriend for? not so i can say i have a girlfriend, or so i can have someone to makeout with…no, i just want somone that i feel that close to again. i want someone to be concerned with me, to desire me and what little i have to offer, to hold me close when i feel unhappy…but i also miss being able to devote myself, in turn, to all the needs and desires of someone else. but maybe i’m not ready for that, or am not capable of providing that. like i said, it’s a pretty selfish wish, and i realize that i could be in this position of singleness for a very long time, so i don’t need to be dwelling on what i don’t have. i wish i could just abandon these selfish desires and be content with the situation. after all, i need a lot of work, and sitting around feeling sorry for myself sure isn’t advancing the cause. but that’s my heart. God save it.
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Jesta Says: March 22nd, 2005 at 12:15 am
I’ve been there as well. I know what you’re saying.
scott Says: March 22nd, 2005 at 10:22 pm
yeah, type out my thoughts why don’t ya? the whole contentness thing is easier said than done. but then again, so is having a girlfriend.
Pauline Says: March 27th, 2005 at 8:49 am
When I read your post, it actually says out what I felt. People tells me, God have something better for me…so I have to wait a little longer. But, why me?