it’s flag day

today is my brother’s birthday. he’s 20 years old, and that is rather strange-sounding.

i’m still plodding along, trying to make the best out of the mistakes i’ve made. i feel like i’m pretending to be normal, when i’m not normal at all. my life seems to be like broken glass, and all i can do is step gingerly about and hope i don’t cut myself. i want to mean something, but i’ve ruined so many chances to break away from mediocrity.

i want to learn how to love someone other than myself.