the dreaming tree

i went to graduation at ouachita today. it was mostly fun. i liked seeing zach and julie graduate, but mostly it just reminded me of how i haven’t graduated and mostly just fail at the things i try to do. things don’t quite go how i imagined them and all of a sudden i’m turned upside down wondering whether or not i want to live. i usually decide yes, but recently thoughts like that have been creeping back inside of me…which is really disturbing, but what am i supposed to do? if they come, they come. the messed up thing is that one minute i’ll be really down and out, and then the next i’ll be happy as larry (however happy he is). i don’t know…i just have to sigh and move on, i reckon.

yes, i have officially scheduled my senior composition recital. it’ll take place next april the 19th in fayetteville. pretty exciting, but also a little nerve wrecking, particularly for one piece that i’m going to be conducting. all the pieces are being performed not-by-me (which i’m very thankful for), but this one requires a conductor and my professor told me i’m going to do it. it’s a piece i wrote for a full wind ensemble at ouachita, but i’m transcribing it for 9 players (flute, clarinet, trumpet, french horn, trombone, violin, cello, piano and percussion). it’s called with lights of amethsyt, which i think is a really cool name, if i’m allowed to say that about my own piece. anyway, it’s going to be very interesting, seeing as how i’ve never really conducted a group in a performance, but it’ll also be a great experience, i imagine, and loads of fun. here’s a list of the other stuff on the program:

violin and piano sonata
two art songs
piano sonata
kyrie for a capella choir (hopefully i won’t have to conduct that, too)

and maybe one more choir piece if i have time.

so weird that this is finally happening.

and in other exciting news, mayor dave is recording once more. we’re just gonna lay down one track next friday, but i’m really really excited about it. i’ll put it up here when we’re done.