sighness
By david On December 16th, 2006i went to graduation at ouachita today. it was mostly fun. i liked seeing zach and julie graduate, but mostly it just reminded me of how i haven’t graduated and mostly just fail at the things i try to do. things don’t quite go how i imagined them and all of a sudden i’m turned upside down wondering whether or not i want to live. i usually decide yes, but recently thoughts like that have been creeping back inside of me…which is really disturbing, but what am i supposed to do? if they come, they come. the messed up thing is that one minute i’ll be really down and out, and then the next i’ll be happy as larry (however happy he is). i don’t know…i just have to sigh and move on, i reckon.
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SarahJane Says: December 23rd, 2006 at 1:39 pm
Sorry to hear you’re down. (maybe not anymore.. maybe right now you’re happy as Larry, haha)
I’ll be praying for you. The cool thing about taking a while to finish anything (in your case maybe school) because of various obstacles you’ve had to face is that when you’re finished, it’s such an accomplishment.
It’s like if someone goes through life with no problems (not that that really happens, but hypothetically) - it’s no great accomplishment for them to succeed. But when you see someone succeed in spite of hardship and obstacles and problems along the way, it’s such a celebration (see “Pursuit of Happyness” for a really good illustration)
Danielle Says: January 27th, 2007 at 12:30 am
I totally agree with Sarah Jane. I really feel you on the failure aspect of your post. I feel that so often.
I hope you’re happy as larry today. 