the dreaming tree

i’m caught in-between and i don’t know what’s going on in my life. the band i’ve loved for 6 years is dissolving before my eyes, and i don’t even know if i care (but i do, i just don’t want to have to). some people say i should move to nashville and hire myself out to whoever. but that’s not what i really want to do…that seems like i’m just a music whore. i want to be in a band with people that love to make music and are passionate about working hard to be the best band possible. that’s all i want. but i don’t know where or how to find it. it takes forever for me to get comfortable with new people, and it would be almost all new people if i moved. but at the same time, i’m sure there’s a bevy of musicians and that i could fit in. i’m simply sick of wasting the talent that i have (that’s not intended to be braggadocios, but i think i’ve been told enough times how good i am that maybe i should start to embrace it a little…and then get better). i want to be on stage, making people dance, sing and just love life.