Science (non) Fiction

I’m amazed sometimes by how the right song will play just when I need to hear it - you know? Like at the end of a really tough day, when I’m having a really hard time believing that God is in control of every aspect of my life, and that he really does have a plan for me, to ‘prosper me and not to harm me’ - and then I get in the car and Alison Krauss is singing this song, and it’s like what my heart would be singing, if my heart sounded like Alison’s beautiful voice. Even if the song is talking about all the hard times, and maybe by comparison, I’ve had a pretty easy life - there are still things that make me doubt God in the very secret places of my soul, and sometimes crying out to God to ‘help my unbelief’ is about all I can do.

I’ve seen hard times and I’ve been told
There isn’t any wonder that I fall
Why do we suffer, crossing off the years
There must be a reason for it all

I’ve trusted in You, Jesus, to save me from my sin
Heaven is the place I call my home
But I keep on getting caught up in this world I’m living in
And Your voice it sometimes fades before I know

Hurtin’ brings my heart to You, crying with my need
Depending on Your love to carry me
The love that shed His blood for all the world to see
This must be the reason for it all

Hurtin’ brings my heart to You, a fortress in the storm
When what I wrap my heart around is gone
I give my heart so easily to the ruler of this world
When the one who loves me most will give me all

In all the things that cause me pain You give me eyes to see
I do believe but help my unbelief
I’ve seen hard times and I’ve been told
There is a reason for it all