Too far to walk tonight
I get scared that forgiveness is for better people
So I give up trying to fight
Jesus, you’ll have to come get me
‘Cause it’s too far to walk tonight.
This part of Andrew Osenga’s song ‘Too far to walk’ always gets me - how many of us haven’t felt at some point that we were ‘too bad’ for God to forgive, whether or not that’s a life-long feeling, or a momentary blip on the radar? I certainly have, and I definitely fall into the trap of ‘giving up trying to fight’ - comes with being a perfectionist firstborn, I guess
If I can’t do something perfectly or 100%, why even try? (This may also have something to do with why I can’t keep my house clean, but that’s a whole other can of worms to open on a later day :lol:)
But I love the heartfelt plea in the song for Jesus to come get me, here, where I am, not up there where I want to be, but down here, where I am now, struggling, slipping. That total reliance on Him is something that I struggle with quite often (actually, reliance on anyone is hard for me, as I’ve noted on here previously), and I’m sure I’m not alone in that struggle. I want the control that I should hand over to God. So I have to rely on the promises of God:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths
Proverbs 3:5-6


