Questions from answers

I think I need some change in my life, not drastic, but I think for meI need to get out of my comfort zone. Life is a little too comfortable for me rightnow. If I don’t change anything, life will just keep going by. I don’t really want to change, but I know I would be a lot more useful to God if I stepped out on faith more. It sounds easy to say it but, to actually do anything is another matter.

Currently I have an accounabilty partner which I am thankful for but, I wonder if I need a mentor as well. I think I need to find someone who understands me and is able to speak some wisdom in my life.

I watched sermon recently by Irwin McManus of Mosaic Church in LA. He spoke of returning to an unsanitzed Christianity. Something where you live more by faith instead of pursuing comfort. More like how John the Baptist lived, the disciples, Paul and of course Jesus lived. They didn’t have a comfortable life and because of that God was able to use them in extraordinary ways.

And here I am, what risks by faith do I take for God. Not many. Why not? If I am truly being honest, I think I’m scared. I like the comfortable lifestyle. Being scared doesn’t really suit my personality, because I do like to take chances. Some people think I am crazy in some of the things that I do, but I know what my limits are and I’ll jump as far as my limits will take me. When it comes to faith God wants me to jump farther than my limits take me, and thats why I’m scared. I know I shouldn’t be scared but my head and heart do not correspond to each other in this. It’s that fear of the unknown.
I pray that I can trust God enough that I will go where He leads.
If anyone wants to pray for me as well that would be appreciated.

I wanted to make sure I updated my blog before we take another week holiday. This will be my last holidays till Christmas time. We are going to Nelson, BC. Not quite the Rockies but very close. We will be at a cabin on Kootenay Lake very similar to this:

Thanks for “listening” to my thoughts.

So recently I took this Personality Test over here.. http://www.oneishy.com/personality
I thought the way the test went, was a little unusual and I have no idea how accurate this test is, but when I read the results I was very strong in the Phlegmatic category. The other categories were a lot lower but pretty evenly scored. I read the qualities both good and bad for a phlegnmatic and it describeed me almost exactly.
So I started thinking, can I be a more of a leader rather than a follower of which a phlegmatic person is prone to be? I am in a few leadership positions at the moment, but they haven’t been all that easy for me. I am constantly looking for those words of affirmation that I am doing fine as a leader. It’s the natural confidence and leadership that I want but find it so hard to attain. Is this a learned process? Could I learn to be a choleric type person, which sounds quite opposite my character.
I am not trying to be something I am not, but rather trying to improve some of my weaknesses. I would like to run my own company successfully one day, be a good leader for the bible study I lead., be a strong leader in my family.
I know God created different types of personalities for a reason and we can’t all be one type of person, life wouldn’t be balanced that way. So should I embrace the way God made me naturally or try to become more of a leader-type person even though it doesn’t come to me naturally?

This are my ponderings this week, sorry I haven’t written in a while I have been on holidays, things were a little busy.