I get by with a little help from my friends…
What do I do when my love is away
(Does it worry you to be alone?)
How do I feel by the end of the day,
(Are you sad because you’re on your own?)No, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends~Beatles
I really do have amazing friends…
Last week I was so so so sick. I don’t think I have ever felt that sick.
I couldn’t keep anything down, I was in horrible pain… and I was miserable.
I went the ER three times, and was finally admitted last Friday.
I stayed in the hospital until Sunday with severe dehydration… low blood sugar… and an inflamed gall bladder due to gall stones.
It was hard for me to be far away from my family when I was so sick and so scared.
I felt afraid and alone and frustrated.
But I wasn’t alone.
I have an amazing circle of friends who stepped up and took care of me.
When I was sick and couldn’t eat and couldn’t leave my house they brought broth and crackers and medicines and popsicles and flowers… they ordered me food and charged it to their credit card and had it sent to my house…
They sat with me, and loved me, even when I was puking into a family size ice cream bucket.
My friend is a doctor, and all week she was patient and answered my questions and made a very scary process seem less scary…
All my friends encouraged me, sometimes quite forcefully to suck it up and go to the hospital… even when I was being stubborn and didn’t want to go.
And the three times I did go, my friends came and sat with me until the middle of the night. One even slept on the floor in the ER until 5 am.
When I was admitted to the hospital, they called quite often, and sent text messages, and came and sat with me. They all made sure I was okay, not just physically, but emotionally as well.
They dropped what they were doing to take care of me… to pick me up and take me home from the hospital.
They were all good to me.
I have friends that are close to me and other friends from all over the country, and this week they have poured out their love in such tangible ways.
All this week they have checked up on me, and given me time and space to heal.
But the truth is loneliness still creeps up at times… frustration still gets the better of me… my body is still healing and I am still very tired at times… I want to feel sorry for myself… but then my friends hold me close and I am reminded once again of how blessed I am.
Yesterday I was walking home from work feeling sad and lonely.
It was a hard two week, and I miss my friends and my family more than I can say.
It upset me that it was Easter weekend and I had no plans…
I felt alone.
Even though I am feeling better I am still really worn down. And even though all I do at work is sit and answer the phone I am so tired at night I go home and lay down. And it frustrates me to not be able to do all the things I usually do.
I was lonely and frustrated and tired of walking…
I almost worked myself into tears by the time I got to my house…
And then I checked my mailbox and found five cards from my girlfriends.
They all wrote to let me know I was loved and they were thinking about me…
And then I DID cry… not because I was sad or lonely… but because I AM loved, and so lucky, and so blessed.
And today I talked to my friends, and my Easter, which was once going to be filled with loneliness, is now filled with friends and the promise of laughter and love.
So I get by with a little help from my friends….
And I survive with a little help from my friends…
I love you all, and I am more thankful than you will ever know.
