E Harmony, Match.com, and the real world
I signed up for eharomy today.
I think I should be a “dater”.
I get asked out a lot but never go.
I was just never a girl to “date”
I always had relationships.
I was in a relationship from the time I was 14 until I was 26.
And even then I was single-minded about who I wanted to be in a relationship with.
Right now I am single… and yet in my heart I am waiting…
waiting for what?
waiting for who?
I am tired of waiting.
Why not date?
Why not meet a man for dinner and see what happens?
Why invest time and heart into something that may or may not work?
Why does everything have to be so complicated and hard?
Why can’t I join cheesy internet dating sites and go go have coffee without having to fall in love and make any major commitments?
I want to play cards and go to the movies and walk around the mall and laugh and enjoy someone without wondering about tommorow and the day after that.
I want to be a “dater”
It plays out so nicely in my head…
But the truth is I am not sure I am cut out for the dating world.
The truth is so much of my heart is already gone.
The truth is I emotionally invest… and I would hate no strings attached relationships.
Thats not who I am.
Thats not even who I want to be.
But don’t remind me of that today. Just ask me out for a drink after work… and tell me we don’t have to worry about tommorow.
I just want to go on a date.
