Life As an Afterschool Special

*The cool night air. I love sleeping under lots of blankets with the windows wide open. I love that the stars and the moon and everything feels so crisp and bright.

* Football games. I enjoy the sound of the crowds and the thrill of the game and losing yourself in the action. I like how it divides people and unites people and brings out loyalty.

* Being able to wear almost any shoe in your closet. Seriously. Sandals, Running Shoes, High Heels, Boots… everything works in the fall. How can you not love that?

* Hot Apple Cider and Chai Lattes on cold days. I love the smell, the taste, the warmth.

* New school supplies. I know I am adult and the sight of trapper keepers and unused notebooks shouldn’t excite me, but I love the beginning of the school year, when everything is fresh is new and possibilities seem endless.

* Bonfires. I love the smell. I love the contrast of the cool night air and the warm fire. I love toasting marshmallows and singing and cuddling up.

* The changing colors. Looking around and seeing God in nature.

* Jeans. Dressy jeans, messy jeans, jeans with holes in the knees. I love jeans in the fall.

* Halloween. Dressing up and carving pumpkins and passing out candy and remembering your inner child.

* Dinner Parties. Nothing like a good bottle of wine and a good group of friends on a cool day

* Fresh Corn on the Cob. I even eat it raw sometimes.

* Fall TV. New seasons and new shows.

* Candles. Being able to burn candles everywhere, and light them earlier because it gets darker sooner

* The stillness of the lake. The grayness of the water

* My Birthday is in October (17th).

I took this off of Katiekins blog…

I couldnt think of anything else to write…

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Jamie
2. James
3. Majesta Bianca

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. imjlrw
2. Jamie
3. Jamie Lee

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I am fun
2. I am resilient
3. I am loyal

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Polish
2. Irish
3. Native American

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Drowning
2. People I love dying.
3. Bad Matt

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music
2. Laughter
3. Communication

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black tee shirt
2. Black pin striped pants
3. Silver flip flops

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Violet Burning
2. U2
3. Over the Rhine

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. When It Don’t Come Easy- Patty Griffin
2. Latter Days- Over the Rhine
3. Deep water- Jewel
(clearly I have been in a mellow mood)

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Run a 5k and a 10k
2. Sticking to a budget
3. Play guitar

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Honesty
2. Laughter
3. Loyalty

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I have been to Japan
2. I have been to Colorado
3. I have been to Canada

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Sense of Humor
2. A man who is a man
3. Smile

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. Drive well
2. Wink
3. Flirt

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Swimming
2. Seeing Concerts
3. Laying on the grass.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. See my family.
2. Talk a walk outside (its SO nice)
3. Lay on the beach

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. Chick Lit Author
2. Trucker (only for the hat and cool walkie-talkie name)
3. Trophy Wife

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe
2. Nashville
3. The Grand Canyon
(That is just three places I would like to go that I have never been… but I’d go anywhere)

THREE KID’S NAMES:
1. Hope
2. Violet
3. Samantha
(I don’t really know what I want to name my kids)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Really fall in love
2. Get married
3. Make babies. (hee)

I smell like chlorine. It seems like it doesn’t matter how much I shower, after 15 years of teaching lessons and swimming, the smell has just settled in my skin. When I get wet it smells like chlorine. Lick me, you’ll smell the pool. I got up and swam with Susie early this morning. I love waking up super early and going to the gym. I loving feeling that by 8 am I have already accomplished something. I love how relaxing it is as my muscles stretch with each stoke. I love how water surrounds you and protects you and how easy it is to get lost in your own world while you swim. After we swam I showered and through on a dress and some sandals and went into work. But a coworker walked by and said “Does it smell like the pool in here?” Heh. That would be me.

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As I was typing this Tim the FedEx man came by. It’s been all awkward since I told him I didn’t want to go out. I am sure most of that is me, but some of it is him. Because he always reminds me that if I change my mind he would love to take me out. And today he said “you could be my baby” It was hard not to laugh in his face. Because I can be a bitch. And because that is a HORRID pickup line. No wonder the man is still single.

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There are a lot of homeless men out these days. Susie and I drove by one last night that had a big sign that said “trapped in the land of oz, please help”. It was on a piece of white card board and drawn in four different colors of markers. I don’t get it. And once again maybe it’s because I can be a bitch, but HELLO. If you are resourceful enough to find clean white cardboard and FOUR different colors of markers you are resourceful enough to walk your ass to the YMCA homeless shelter where they will FEED you and help you find a JOB. Be a man. I don’t feel sorry for you and you can’t have a dollar.

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My trip to the science museum with Greg got canceled on Sunday. Stupid mother’s day. But he just walked by my desk and asked if we could reschedule for Saturday. YAY! I am totally going to go see dead bodies this weekend!

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Who decided that leggings should be back in style? Seriously. I walked by forever 21 and apparently styles haven’t changed since I was in middle school. The 80’s are back. Why? They weren’t that cute the first time around. And trust me I was all about the leggings and the short skirts back in the day. I loved them. But I also loved pegged pants and banana clips and sticky pink lip gloss (ok so I still love the lip gloss). It doesn’t mean they should be relived. (Ironically as I was typing this Irene Caras What a feeling started playing on my media player. Heh)

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I want these shoes SO BAD.

I saw them online today. 90 dollars though. Holy Buckets. But they are awesome.

Hasn’t stopped raining for days….

(Seriously. Did I move to Seattle and not know it?)

It was so hard to get out of bed this morning.

I stayed on the phone entirely too late (although I did totally WIN) and when my alarm went off at 5 am I decided I didn’t REALLY want to go to the gym, reset my alarm for 6:45.

What FELT like a minute later my alarm went off again.

It was freezing in my room, and raining outside, and my bed was so comfortable and my feather comforter was so warm and it was such perfect sleeping weather that I considered staying in bed, quitting my job, going on welfare, and living off the government.

But then I remembered I was a Republican so I got up.

I was running late, I could only find one of the shoes I wanted, and I stabbed myself in the eye with my mascara.

And then I remembered that I left my umbrella in my friend’s car last night.

I grabbed my purse and my pink raincoat (that doesn’t have a hood, shouldn’t raincoats have hoods?) and ran out the door.

I decided I didn’t want to walk the 10 blocks to work in the rain, but I saw the bus coming, so I took off my high heels and ran barefoot through puddles to get to the bus stop.

And I loved it!

I love playing in the rain. I love going barefoot. I love the moments in life when we let go of inhibition and act like children and just enjoy ourselves.

So now I am at work, my hair is messy and wet, I had mascara running down my face, and I am freezing.

But I think its going to be an amazing day…

I think you can tell a lot about a woman by what her favorite flower is and the way she describes it.

Most people know that my favorite flower to recieve is a gerber daisy

In fact I went to the farmers market yesterday and now have a vase a gereber daisies on my desk at work.

I think they are bright and bold and fun and yet a little fragile.

and I think that is usually a pretty acurate description of myself.

But I have a secret.

But my real favorite flower is really lilacs.

Only a few people know that about me.

My best Susie and I sometimes go on lilacs hunts… we grab scissors and a vase and to the edge of highways and to parks and anywhere we can find lilac bushes that dont technically belong to anyone (and sometimes that do)

I love the way they smell. I love the color. I love the tiny little flowers.

I love that they overpower a room. I love how bold they are and yet how delicate they are.

I think lilacs are such a feminine flower.

There is nothing better to me than to have a whole room full of lilacs.

Last night I was walking home and spring was in the air and all the lilac bushes were starting to bloom and you could just smell flowers everywhere.

And I am so excited I can hardly wait for them to finish blooming.

last fall I was walking home from work and a woman came out of a parking garage downtown with a pink moped and a pink helmet and a skirt and highheels.

I wanted to BE that woman.

Mopeds are only around $700.00

And I live and work downtown.

And its PINK.

ohhhhhh, I really want one.

I organized and downsized my shoe closet this weekend

and I got rid of 20 pairs of shoes!

I am TOTALLY downsizing!

I am so proud!

TA DA!

TA DA!

The saga continues

Today I had the day off work, so I went with my sister and spent the day lounging by her dads pool.

I decided to take the back way home from Grove City to Galloway.

As I was driving down the back roads, I heard a loud pop and then steam began pouring out of my car.

When I got out to look I discovered the radiator has busted and I lost a belt (how proud are you of me that I figured it out all by my self!)

The major problem was I was literally in the middle of nowhere. Cornfields as far as I could see.

And no one would answer their phone.

Well Kim and Dena answered their phones, but they don’t even live in this state.

I was outside, in 93 degree weather, wearing a bathing suit and a towel, and I couldn’t get anyone on the phone to come get me.

At which point I did have a complete meltdown, and sobbed.

I cried for a good 45 minutes sitting on the hood of my car wearing a bathing suit, surrounded by cornfields.

Its just been a really really really hard day… Hard week… Hard month.

Finally after waiting just over two hours my stepmom showed up, took me to go get a belt for my car, and then we met my dad back at my car.

They used my dads truck to tow me back to my dads house…

My step mom poured us a glass of tequila.

And I know its just a little thing… But all the little things are starting to add up…

Does anyone know how to add titles to my posts?

Just some thought since I havent worote in so long….

• Kathy and Tim made me cry last night. I talked to kathy on the phone last night… told her about what was happening in my life and how I am handling it and how hard everything is, and Tim asked if I needed them to come get me and bring me “home” to Minneaota. kathy said “we are serious.. we will get in the car and come get you” I love them so deeply and I am so so so blessed by the way they love me.

• I need a new battery for my car. I was going to get one for free and the FBI came and arrested the man who was going to give me one… I hope he gets out soon… I hate not having a car. Such is like in the bottoms….

• I really really really love my job. I think it is the one thing that keeps me sane right now. It is good for me to be outside everyday.. in the sunshine.. and to be able to swim. There is something so therepudic about water.

• My favorite cover band.. bad little monkies.. is breaking up. That makes me sad, because my roomates and I love to go watch them play. They are totally danceable, even when you are sober. So if anyone knows any guitarist that live in Columbus let me know.

• Katie gave me a baseball bat when she was here. We named it Rawly. I sleep with it every night. I find it very comforting… People sleep with teddy bears or extra pillows or even blankies…. but I have a bat. I think thats perfectly normal, perfectly heathly.

• Speaking of perfectly normal… my friend Joshewah left me a message last night and told me my answering machine message sounded depressing and if I didnt change it he would kick my ass. It made me laugh and Amy decide I should marry him. And then I didnt call him back. He loves that about me.

• Seriously.. I need some sleep. I think I have slept 5 hours in the past 72.

• Call me… write me… email me… I miss you all… and I need some love.