Free Saturday.
Regarding last night’s post: is it strange that I am almost comforted knowing that I am not the only one who struggles with feelings of not being good enough? I’m sorry to know that people can commiserate with me.
At the same time, thank you for sharing your feelings with me. In a way I am encouraged… and it makes me a little less lonely knowing you all are out there. Know that you’re in my prayers.
Today has been a good day, I think. I spent time cleaning, reading, and drinking Starbucks (I recently switched from Grande to Venti) outside on the front porch. Cleaning always helps to keep me cheerful. Even though no one besides Josh, Seamus, and myself see the inside of our little apartment, I feel more confident going out in public when I have cleaned. It has something to do with the thought that I could invite someone over on a whim and they could walk in our apartment without seeing my underwear on the bathroom floor.
(Don’t get me wrong, it’s cute underwear! I just don’t want you to see it. Sorry.)
There are other things that make me cheerful, like having something to look forward to. I love having something to look forward to! Right now I have two things: a Jason Harrod concert tomorrow night, and an online course I have signed up for. The course is on C.S. Lewis’ writings, specifically The Chronicles of Narnia and Surprised by Joy.
It is an answer to prayer that I’m having an enjoyable day today. My hope is that I’m not the only one.
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Well, my day wasn’t all sweetness and light, but it didn’t suck, either.
I think that knowing you’re not the only one who feels a certain way is a huge reason we are commanded to be in fellowship. It’s very important to not feel alone, because it’s not true.
Glad to know it, Geof! Keep on keepin’ on.
(And you’re right, Kari. I always fall for Satan’s tricks!)