Mrs Kioski

No relationship is perfect. Wether it be between friends, lovers, parents, and children there is always going to be some sort of conflict. Conflict is a natural part of human relationships. Wouldnt life be boring if we all thought the same thing? COnflict isnt so bad once we learn to deal with it in a mature and good way. Conflict becomes frustrating in a relationship (of any sort) when one of the parties decides that they know what is best for the other’s life. They decide that they think that they can make all of the important life decisions for that other person or persons. Who would want someone to do this for them? It restricts imagination and chances for improvement and growth. It restricts levels of maturity. I know that my parents were this way. They could not stand that I did not want to be Catholic anymore, they could not stand that I would not join People of Praise. They wanted to make those decisions for me. Unfortunately for them, this was not there decision. Unfortunately for me, they could not stand that and decided to disown me.
It is hard for young people, like Mike and myself, to step out on our own into the world. We are so thankful for our lifelines (Mark, Lynda, Edrie, and Greg). I dont know where we would be without them. But, I think that we are doing very well considering what we got. We are paying for our own car insurance each month along with our rent. We buy most of our own food and have bought so much for Emma. I have never been more happy in my life than now; and I know that I can say the same for Mike. Our little family is our pride and joy. We may not have much, but we do not need much. Being happy is so much more important than following the trends of society or doing things the “right” way. Emma is the best thing that has ever happened to Mike and I; she is our pride and joy. I would go as far to say that we need her in our lives. I cant help but wonder where we would be without her. Would the relationships that we have be as fruitful as they are now? Emma has brought us closer to the ones that we love and truly love us. Her innocence and love is the glue that seems to hold us all together. She reminds us that there is hope; but isnt there always hope in new life? A way to start new and maybe, just maybe her life will go right where ours went wrong.

Today Emma started to laugh and smile while I was holding her for the first time while she was awake. For some reason she has smiled and laughed in her sleep before. It was so precious and cute to see her so happy.

Well, yesterday was my 21st birthday. It feels good to be 21. I went and bought a bottle of red wine (Merlot) and some Mike’s hard lemonade. Unfortunately Rhea and I forgot to buy a cork screw; so we were stuck with the problem of getting the bottle open another way. And, yes, we did find another way. We pounded the cork with a screw driver until it popped into the bottle. Wine splattered all over us and the screw driver fell into the bottle. But, we were able to get our wine, which is what mattered!
I felt really loved this birthday, not only because of all the great presents that I got. It was great to celebrate my birthday with those that are close to me. Although I was pretty dissapointed that none of my siblings were there (they were all out of town).

Emma is doing wonderfully. She had a little cold there for a while, but is over it now. She is growing like crazy and is getting very long.she is going to be tall, maybe as tall as her Grandma.

Emma poops a lot. In fact she just had the most full diaper i have ever seen. Thankfully, rhea was duped into changing it, so i didnt have to! Unlike adults who poop on an average of once per day, Emma poops at least 4 times per day. And i usually end up cleaning it up.
I dont know why im thinking about poo so much right now, i think it may also have to do with the fact that there is not enough water in our toilet so the poo wont go down sometimes. ew. ew. ew. the maintenance came by and increased the water pressure, but it only helps it a little.

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I think that taking online classes at NCC is actually harder than taking classes on campus, that is, most of the classes require more work. Thankfully the work load didnt start to really pick up until after Emma was born. Since i am at home most of the time i have been able to keep up with my classes (while keeping an apartment clean also).
I went back to see my midwife, Kathrine, last week. I had to go see her even though she wanted me to have homecare becuase of some insurance issues. But, my blood pressure is back to normal! My glucose levels have been normal too. It feels great to be back to my old healthy self. I have also lost 30 pounds already. The first midwives that i were seeing were so concerned that i was gaining so much weight, when really it was mostly just water weight; which i dont have much control over.
Mike and I were able to go out to dinner with Rhea and Erik (and a few other people) last Friday because ive been given the ok to start giving emma a bottle. she hasnt had any nipple confusion since we have been giving her a bottle once in a while. i have actually heard that babies wont take a bottle if you wait too long to give them one. she seemed to really enjoy being out with all of us. i think that she still a bit too young to be left with a babysitter. she cant stand to be away from me and i think that we would end up coming home early if we left her at home right now. anyway, here’s a picture of the 3 of us and one of her godparents: