A Teddy Lover’s Travels…

I was channel surfing yesterday when I came accross an old favorite, Star Trek TNG. I have been watching this a lot lately with my husbandThis afternoon, however, I was all by myself. It started me thinking. It was about how each and everything you do shapes who you are. As odd as this may seem it got me thinking about my past and how every little step of the way brought me to the person I am now
As I sat on the couch, I started thinking about how if I had never met some of the people that I have then, how different my life would have been. Something as simple as going to the partywhere I met Erik. Meeting Mike and all the others. Meeting Rachel at CSS and bringing the two of them to the same place. One small event can have so much of an impact on thefuture. Julie’s 20th brithday party, the party where I met Erik that in turn changed many otherlives. Also I often wonder if I’d be the same person if I had started out going to Normandale in the beginning of my college career I would never have met Rachel.
In my own life I started piecing together how all the events that I had been through in my life had lead me to where I am today. If just one thing had been different I wonder what all had would different. I could go on for pages about how many things that I have chosen have lead me to Erik, but that would take a noveland I don’t have time to write one of those. So I guess I’ll just continue to think about them.
I guess it’s sort of like the Book By Mitch Albom The Five People You Meet In Heaven. This book leads us through the encounters that an elderly man is lead though before he is allowed to settle down in the place that he calls heaven. He meets a man who died in an accient while trying to avoid hitting him, a man that had something to do with him being held hostage in the war, the person who founded the amusement park he worked his dead wife, and then last we get to the girl that he accidently killed while he was at war.
It could also be like the movie It’s a Wonderful Life, where a young man wishes he had never been born. He goes and sees what life would be like without him.It seems like the whole town has been touched by him. In the end he learns his lesson and realizes what a wonderful life he really has.
I think that I don’t think often enough about how many lives I have touched and how different my life would be if I hadn’t done everything that I have done in my life
I wouldn’t trade anything for the world that I have been through, like people are constantly
telling me “everything happens for a reason” I am a true believer of that.
Maybe we all need to stop and ponder that questions for awhile. You may even think that something is a waste of time, but it’s not. If you feel the need to do something than please do it. You never know how many things would be different.
This has gone on far longer than I ever intended it to, but I get going on something and I can’t stop. I am waiting and wondering just how many events will not
only shape my future and those around me. If I was ever given the chance to go back in time and change something I don’t think I ever would want to for fear I mightundo something that effects me or someone else in a negative way.

This weekend I got a call from my mom and she said something that I didn’t want to believe but I know it to be the truth now. While I was off in a bus fire my beloved cousin, Adam was off making trouble with his friends. This would not have been so bad, but somehow he either managed to jump or fall out a third story window.
He is not dead, but he is very seriously injured. He broke his spine and hip. By the grace of God he supposedly still has some movement in his limbs. This is not going to be an easy recovery. It is going to take many surgeries to lessen the pain that he is in.
There has already been one surgery attempt, but it had to be postponed because he had a reaction to the blood and is now on a ventilator. This is one of the hardest things for me to write about because there has been many times that I have thought of him as my brother. My aunt is beside herself with worry and her ex-husband is here for her and her other son.

Tonight I was on my way to class, now I take the bus, and I always have adventures. Tonight was by far the scariest. I was waiting for the bus and it was a little late. The old piece of junk shows up and the driver told us all to hop on the bus. Despite my thoughts, I thought to myself this bus looks like a pile of junk that might fall apart, I got on.
We started on the route that the bus always takes. There was a person that wanted to get on and the driver was trying to turn on the wheel chair thingy and then it started to catch on fire. We all had to get off the bus. I somehow managed to drop my phone and now it’s gone.
After a few minutes the bus got lose and starting backing up and heading into on coming traffic. This was so hard to believe. They had to close off the road after the bus came to a halt a few feet from a building. One must stop and realize how lucky eveyone is didn’t get hurt.
I got so freaked out that I almost passed out, and someone told me that I had better go home, instead of go to class. I’m really scared that the professor might be really mad at me. I need lots of prayer and support during this time.
Some guy was nice enough to help all of us that got stranded on 98th Street and Logan Ave. He helped to keep us calm. And whoever that man was I feel like I need to thank him a lot.