A Teddy Lover’s Travels…

It seems that even though I have a blog I don’t update it very often. It’s not that I don’t have time, it just that I’m too busy living life. I feel that in all of my life I have never lived like I have these past few months.
Being married is great and also a lot of work. Without Erik I’m almost postive that life would not be as wonderful as it is. There is no one out there that I love as much as him.
After a lot of thought and prayer, I have decided that I’m not going to be going back to school in the fall. The fact that I can not afford it is only one of the many reasons why I’m not going back. This is a time for me to get to learn more about life, and about myself. I have been in school for about 17 years without a break. I’ll go back at some point and finish since that is what I want to do. I just have to find a job now and I’ll be set for awhile.
Life is crazy, but that is what makes it fun.

During the weekend of the huge snow storm in the one that occured the weekend of March 2, 2007, Erik and I went to his parents’ house so that we could avoid having to look for a parking space since parking is pretty difficult around here as it is. When I came home my beloved kitty, Ashes, started lying in the pile of litter just outside the box. She stopped eating and I thought that she was just mad at us for leaving. I noticed that she had a wound on the side of her body that wouldn’t go away. On March 6 I called the vet and we had planned on taking her there the next day. I left for school after being with her constantly, I came home from school that day and found her dead under the bed. This was very sad for me as I had gotten Ashes when I was in 6th grade from my mom and dad. She was my best friend and before we got the dog she slept in my bed under the cover right next to me. R.I.P. Ashes, I love you.
I’m not sure exactly what year she was born because my mom found her so 199?-2007. You will always be remembered and loved by those who knew your. Maybe I’ll post a pic of her later when I find one.
On Saturday March 10, Rachel took me to the human society in Golden Valley. I didn’t know where she was going until we got lost. When we got there it was so busy and there was so much going on. She looked at me and told me that I got to pick out a kitty. I found only one cat that would work. She was a little older and fatter than I wanted. She is 5 ½ years old. I brought her home and now she is a part of our family. She can’t replace Ashes and I don’t want her to. She is a sweet kitty that is very friendly. She is not to found of Sox who is Ashes son. Welcome to the family Stardust.

A few weeks ago I went to see my sister in Edina High school’s production of Of Mice and Men. This was the first time that I had gotten a chance to go back to my old high school since I graduated in 2003. When I drove up to the high school with Rachel, I said to her “This is not at all the place I remember. It has changed along with me, I guess I can never go back to the same high school that I went to.”
I want to say to the people that were in the play what a nice job that did. That was not an easy play to put on, and you had to make it real. Most people in Minnesota do not have southern accents and they all had to talk with one. Nice job on that.
I’m not really wrting this to talk about the play. I mean it was great, and that is all that I’m going to say about it. I’m writing this more about changes. To look back remember Edina the way that I remember it almost brings me to tears since I loved that school. I guess it symbolic because it shows that I no longer need that place. It’s hard to go back to something that no longer exixts.
It is still a beautiful place but not the one that I remember. When I was there I ran into some old friends and they were not the same people that I remembered they looked older and more distant, as I’m sure I did to them. I guess you can go home, but it is never going to be the again.
As I sat there I didn’t feel like I was at Edina High School, I felt like I was at some place new. I’m not sure if a lot of you can relate to this, but I’m sure that there are some of you that can. I guess I like knowing that as I change so does the world around me because to me, it seems that nothing is ever going to stay the same.
In the 21/2 years since I’ve graduated, I’ve been to two colleges. I’ve gotten married to the best husband that any girl could ask for. I’ve also become a Godmama to a little girl who is so cute and sweet. I’ve also lived in Duluth, moved back home and now I have my own apartment with my husband. I’ve gotten a whole new group of friend and I’ve also lost my loving Granpa and Nana. I’m sure there are many more things I’ve done too and I just can’t think of any of them.
I’ve changed a lot in many ways. It was almost a happy sight to see that my high school is changing along with me. Change is healthy and a part of life. I’d be worried if people didn’t change, and the things around me didn’t change.