A Teddy Lover’s Travels…

A few weeks ago I went to see my sister in Edina High school’s production of Of Mice and Men. This was the first time that I had gotten a chance to go back to my old high school since I graduated in 2003. When I drove up to the high school with Rachel, I said to her “This is not at all the place I remember. It has changed along with me, I guess I can never go back to the same high school that I went to.”
I want to say to the people that were in the play what a nice job that did. That was not an easy play to put on, and you had to make it real. Most people in Minnesota do not have southern accents and they all had to talk with one. Nice job on that.
I’m not really wrting this to talk about the play. I mean it was great, and that is all that I’m going to say about it. I’m writing this more about changes. To look back remember Edina the way that I remember it almost brings me to tears since I loved that school. I guess it symbolic because it shows that I no longer need that place. It’s hard to go back to something that no longer exixts.
It is still a beautiful place but not the one that I remember. When I was there I ran into some old friends and they were not the same people that I remembered they looked older and more distant, as I’m sure I did to them. I guess you can go home, but it is never going to be the again.
As I sat there I didn’t feel like I was at Edina High School, I felt like I was at some place new. I’m not sure if a lot of you can relate to this, but I’m sure that there are some of you that can. I guess I like knowing that as I change so does the world around me because to me, it seems that nothing is ever going to stay the same.
In the 21/2 years since I’ve graduated, I’ve been to two colleges. I’ve gotten married to the best husband that any girl could ask for. I’ve also become a Godmama to a little girl who is so cute and sweet. I’ve also lived in Duluth, moved back home and now I have my own apartment with my husband. I’ve gotten a whole new group of friend and I’ve also lost my loving Granpa and Nana. I’m sure there are many more things I’ve done too and I just can’t think of any of them.
I’ve changed a lot in many ways. It was almost a happy sight to see that my high school is changing along with me. Change is healthy and a part of life. I’d be worried if people didn’t change, and the things around me didn’t change.

I remember in high school watching The Dead Poets Society, and loving every second of it. There was so much packed in the movie that you could never get bored. I think I watched it in almost every English class from 8th grade until 12th grade. I never realized how much more the movie was saying and how the boys had a very little amount of freedom. Someone comes a long and shows them that they have do have more freedom, he tells them to Carpe Diem “Seize the day”
Tonight I watched it in Lit for the first time in a long time and it took on new meaning for me. It made me realize just how lucky I was that my parents were so nice to me, and they let me do what I wanted. Then I let my mind wonder to all the people that I have known that have not been that lucky.
The freedom that I had at a young age and believe me if you know me really well you know what I’m talking about. I could get away with almost anything. I didn’t have to ask to do anything when I was 16 on up, and I feel like I never even thanked my parents.
People who know me well know that I’m very annoyed by parents who try to run their children’s lives. I have always thought this when people told me that they don’t have the freedom to do as they wished: “You had your chance and now it’s my turn, please don’t tell your 16 + children what to do.” Maybe this is an indication that I’m spoiled I have no idea.
I’m open to suggestions from other people, but I don’t want them to tell me what to do. I’ll do as I please and you do as you please. This is how I would raise kids if I ever had any. You just have to let people find their niche in society, and make their own mistakes. That is what is so important, try not to forget that.
The last thing you want to be is stuck somewhere that you don’t like, and feel like you can’t try anything new. The only person you have to prove anything to is yourself. If you go aganist what you parents want and they cast you out of thier lives. You have lost nothing, God will take care of you in the place of your parents. He is the father after all what kind of father would he be if he just turned you away. He should be your constant guide, and he should be the one you ask for guidence from.