A Teddy Lover’s Travels…

It seems that even though I have a blog I don’t update it very often. It’s not that I don’t have time, it just that I’m too busy living life. I feel that in all of my life I have never lived like I have these past few months.
Being married is great and also a lot of work. Without Erik I’m almost postive that life would not be as wonderful as it is. There is no one out there that I love as much as him.
After a lot of thought and prayer, I have decided that I’m not going to be going back to school in the fall. The fact that I can not afford it is only one of the many reasons why I’m not going back. This is a time for me to get to learn more about life, and about myself. I have been in school for about 17 years without a break. I’ll go back at some point and finish since that is what I want to do. I just have to find a job now and I’ll be set for awhile.
Life is crazy, but that is what makes it fun.

You’d better believe it, life has gotten pretty crazy. I’m happy to say that I’m back up to 13 hours next week. I have a lot of house work that I had better start working on next week too. I also start my two summer on line classes next week.
My hours for next week are as follows Sunday 2-6, Thursday I have to open so my hours are 7-12, and Saturday 12-4. It will be nice to have that many hours for next week. If any of you would like to stop in and see me and get something to eat please be my guest.
Hun I couldn’t have this job without you because you are my encouragement and you help me get to work. I love you for it.

Today I worked. I can’t think of a single Saturday that I haven’t worked since I started. Today was busy, busy, I guess there was a big Mother’s Day Sale complete with makeovers. I went sampling three times and it was so crowded that I almost couldn’t move.
Well while I was waiting for Erik that is when the big adventure started. I was talking with other people and all of a sudden there was smoke coming from one of the cars in the parking lot. A car was on fire!!! You could see the smoke from half a block away. When Erik came and got me I’m pretty sure that the first thing I said to him was, “There is a car on fire in the parking lot.”
Erik and I spent a good deal of time out just the two of us today. I always like spending time with just him. I think that is my bit of heaven. I wish I could see Erik more often, but right now we both have to finish school and work so that we can pay the bills.
Also due to the fact that it is finals this next week, I only work two shifts. I work on Thursday from 12-4 and Saturday from 12-4. Come by if you’d like.

So it’s been a hard time for Marektplace. Not selling like we used to, before I was there. Until they sent me out sampling with a margarita pizza yesterday. I brought so many people there. I’m excited to see where I’m going to be in the future.
I’m hoping that I’m going to do a good job. That is my plan.
I don’t know my hours for next week because I forgot to pick up a schedual for next week. Stay tuned for my hours when I get them tomorrow.

There is something so rewarding about getting to see someone you love. it appears to me that he is healing up nicely. He is hoping to be able to walk again by Febraury. For me that would be nice.
I think that now that I have seen him twice it makes it feel like I have had a lot of love to share with him. I know that he is in a lot of pain, but he seems in a very cheerful mood.

This weekend I got a call from my mom and she said something that I didn’t want to believe but I know it to be the truth now. While I was off in a bus fire my beloved cousin, Adam was off making trouble with his friends. This would not have been so bad, but somehow he either managed to jump or fall out a third story window.
He is not dead, but he is very seriously injured. He broke his spine and hip. By the grace of God he supposedly still has some movement in his limbs. This is not going to be an easy recovery. It is going to take many surgeries to lessen the pain that he is in.
There has already been one surgery attempt, but it had to be postponed because he had a reaction to the blood and is now on a ventilator. This is one of the hardest things for me to write about because there has been many times that I have thought of him as my brother. My aunt is beside herself with worry and her ex-husband is here for her and her other son.

I have always had trouble making friends. Since I started school this year I have had to make many new friends. For me this is hard not because I’m shy, but because I’m not always very good at knowing who I should and should not talk to. The last thing I want to do is fall in with the wrong crowd.
I have made a few friends, my friend Kasey is the one who stands out the most. She seems like someone who I could remain friends with. She doesn’t even live to far from here and we’ve shared some good times together.
Then there is Lindsey, she and I have not always gotten along, but I think that is over now. We have gotten passed that. We were laughing and having a good time together the other day.
I’ll always have my closest friends, Erik, Rachel, Mike (and Emma) my other friends too, you know who you are. But it feels good to have friends of my own. This entry is abiout my new friends, mostly Kasey. I hope that someday soon my other friends can meet at least Kasey.

So I’m 22 now. My birthday is over now for the most part. I didn’t get a lot of stuff, but I got enough. Erik is taking me to the Zoo tomorrow, I love the Zoo. He also got me a nice card, flowers and candy, $20.00 from my grandma, and new clothes from Mike and Rachel.
I’m just waiting for my new shoes from my parents and anything else that anyone is giving me. I got lots of nice myspace comments. I’m not sure what else to even expect.
Now I get to go home and clean up the apartment. I’m not looking foward to it at all. Well I better go and do something productive.

Well I see that mom, Rachel and Erik have already written about Emma. I guess it’s my turn. When Rachel went into labor she called me and told me that her water broke. She and Mike left first and then Erik and I left a little later.
I was with Rachel most of the time. When Mike went to sleep I took his spot next to Rachel. I had a lot of trouble trying to sleep in the labor and delivery room. Everyone else took a nap.
Emma came into the world on September 11, 2006. I was so happy that I got to witness her birth. As her godmom I’m very proud of her. She was born at 4:59 AM. I was there and present for her birth. I was one of the first people to get to hold her.
Since I spend a lot of time with Rachel Emma clearly recognized my voice, and she looked at me. I think I was more emotional than mom herself. I mostlly want to congratulate two of my best friends on having a new baby girl in their lives.
When Emma came home with Mom she wore the very outfit that my sister and I wore. One more thing her whole name is Emma Rhea Kioski

I have had my share of sadness, but I didn’t think anything would ever compare to the death of my dear grandpa. Well I was not exactly right. This afternoon at around 3 o’clock, my nana died. It makes me sad. I love her very much. R.I.P. Nana.