I’m a married person now. I know I can’t believe it but my wedding has come and gone without too much fuss. It was a beautiful wedding. I don’t know how much time I’ll get to be updating since being married is going to keep me busy. I have an apartment now and it is a lot of work.
My wedding was everything I’d ever dreamed of and more. And I get to be married to the most wonderful guy in the world.
So all is quiet in my house and Erik just left aim. I’m sitting in front of my computer. I realized that my wedding gitters are back.
My dress fitting I guess it was yesterday since it is 1 am, made this day seem all the more real to me. Made it seem like I really get to walk down that isle. Made it seem like the day that I’ve been wondering all my life is about to be a memory of the past.
I’m having a slight amount of gitters, but I think they’ll go away. Of course I get to walk down the isle and marry my best friend, the person who seems to matter to me more than anyone.
Everytime I think about my wedding I have a little bit of mist in my eyes. I know that I’m in love with Erik. I know I love him, not only that but he’ll take good care of me.
I also can’t forget that God is a part of this too. He made the two of us and there is no doubt in my mind that we are soulmates.
Leaving this house, the main residence for most of my life makes this a little harder. I have only a few more sentences left to write about the time in my life that I’ve lived in this house. It’s time to start a new one, one all about being Erik’s wife. It’s time for me to leave and start something better. I know that I can do it. This is in no way going to be easy for me, but as long as Erik’s there he’ll make it better.
I thought the days leading up to my high school graduation were full of emotions. I’d have to say that the days leading to my up coming wedding are even more so. I’m happy that I get to marry the man I love. Nervous because I’m going to have a bunch of people watching me. Sad and happy at the sametime about leaving this house. Sad in someways that I won’t be mom and dad’s little girl anymore. I’m just nervous about starting a new chapter in my life.
Mentally I’m constantly preparing myself for this day. It’s time for me to go before a bunch of people some I know well, some I hardly know and other’s I’ve never met, but most importantly before God, and it’s there that I will become Erik’s wife.
I’m ready to be the wife in a home and I’m taught to honor it since it is honor to wear the crown of a wife. I’m thankful that I get to keep my own house and do my own laundry. It’s time I grew up a lot. I’d say that I have grown up more in these past 13 months than I have in the last 21 years.
It’s time for me to pack up my room and take my memories with me of the days gone by and start my real adult life. I look toward my parents we are sharing some of our last days in the same house one last dance. I look towards Erik and he is off in the wings waiting for me to come and share our first dance as a couple with me.
In the next few days I have to sift through my bedroom and decide what needs to stay here, what is not worth keep and what needs to come with us. This is not going to be easy for me since this house holds almost 21 years of memories in it and everything has memories attached with it.
The time has come for me to move on marry Erik and take on the role as his wife. I’m ready to face this challenge. I love Erik enough to know that this is what I want to do.
I’m almost done with them now. It took Rachel and I the latter part of two days to get them done. Getting the addresses was the hard part now it’s just finding time to sit down and write them.
I have so much to do and so little time thank heaven that I have had some help. Mom the invatations look great.
So I had my first dress fitting today. I have 2 or 3 more left. I have my grandma’s wedding dress and it’s been cleaned and now it’s been fixed. I mean it’s from 1951 and I so blessed that I get to wear it. I’m not going to spoil it for anyone though.
Just a little less than 2 months and then it’s all over. I get to be married to my best friend.
I was sitting at my computer today and I was thinking about how there are times when things seem more real than other. My wedding became really real to me for the first time in a long time. It seems strange to think that, that is the case now.
It took me a long to get this to be real to me. Today for whatever reason at whatever time it became real to me. It’s like my brain woke up to the idea again. I feel better about this whole thing.
I feel so much better now like now that this is real I can mentally start picturing what that day will be like.
I’m stuck on what to say for vows I mean I have thought about what I could say, but now I think I might have come up with some ideas. I just have to put them on paper.
I feel like I’ve gotten somewhere, but I have so far to go.
Over the next few months my life is going to change in ways that I’ve only dreamed about. As a girl I used to try and imagine what it would be like to get married. Now as that day grows ever closer, I begin to wonder what this day is really going to be like.
I’m going to be spending the rest of my life with the man I consider to be my best friend. I never knew I could be this lucky. I have the best finacee a girl could ever ask for. He treats me with so much love and respect. I hope that everyone feels this lucky when they meet the man they love.
I can’t begin to tell you how much I love you hun. Just a little over 8 weeks left.