Rhonda's Ramblings

This week, I really let go of something that I have been holding on to tightly for far too long. God gives me gifts and I hold on to them so tightly, afraid that if I don’t he might snatch them right back.

Often, I hold onto things too tightly. I have all of these hopes and dreams that I cling to. Not that it is bad to dream and hope and desire certain things. But for me, there are certain things that I need to surrender to God. But instead, I grab onto them and wrap my fist around them and hold on tight, afraid that if I let go of them and give them to God, that he won’t let me have them. But this week I decided to let go. To open my hand and let God do what he will. Whether he takes them away from me completely or gives them back, I am holding them with my palm upturned. I am holding on to these hopes with an open hand rather than holding on tightly.

And you know what, it’s amazing what freedom that brings. It’s not my job to connive and scheme to try to fulfill my hopes and dreams. It is God’s job to take care of me. And I think I know what’s best. But the fact is, God really knows what’s best for me. He created me. Who better to know what my hopes and desires are and how best to fulfill them?

Not that it has been easy to give up these things, not knowing whether or not God will give them back to me. I have cried many tears this week. My heart is broken. But I need to give them up without expecting that he will give them back to me. I need to trust that his plan is perfect. And though my heart is broken, I am resting in the freedom of the knowledge that God holds me in his hand.

I promised some people that I would update my blog. Though I don’t have anything profound to say, as usual.

It’s been a rough couple of weeks. My grandpa passed away recently. He was 92, so it wasn’t totally unexpected. But it was still hard. He has been a huge part of my life the past couple of years, so it leaves a big void. But what an amazing man. He rarely complained. He was very positive even when life was hard. And he loved Jesus with all his heart. I could learn a few things from him.

And here is a bunch of my family with him at easter:

In other news, I really want to get chickens. But I don’t think I will anytime soon. First, I’d have to build a coop. My brother is making raised beds for my garden, which I’m very excited about. Hopefully it will thwart the gophers and moles.

Boring update. Sorry. I have lots to say but don’t have the energy to put it into words right now.

Have you ever…
( ) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the United States
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
( ) been high
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) saw a therapist
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
(x) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend’s car
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(XXX ) had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back (it sucks)
( ) stole something from your job
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) been to Europe
( ) saved somebody’s life
( ) had your life saved by someone
( ) married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) saw someone die
(x) been to Africa
(x) driven over 400 miles in one day
(x) been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
( ) flown a plane
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten sushi
(x) been skiing
(x) been front row at a concert
(x) gone backpacking in the mountains
( ) been on a blind date
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love

These are a bunch of quizzes that I have randomly taken when I’ve come across them. And now you get a little peek into what the internet thinks that I am.:)

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

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What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

Vertigo by U2

“The night is full of holes Those bullets rip the sky Of ink with gold They twinkle as the boys play rock and roll” In 2004 you partied so hard… you forgot how to count.

What’s Your Trademark Tune?
Rhonda, your trademark tune is Destiny’s Child’s “Survivor”

From clothes to cuties, you know just what you like, and you always go after it. Your independent spirit is what makes you so unique and always guides you in your pursuits. And what makes you that much more of a survivor is your ability to bounce back, even when things don’t go your way.

You probably don’t have to get a lot of opinions about what to wear or where to go to college — you think for yourself and trust your gut. A healthy dose of self-confidence, combined with your work ethic, helps you make decisions and stay on the right track. Beyoncé would be proud.