lately i’ve been feeling there’s something more in almost every aspect of my life, like i’m searching for something. something more that i want from my job, something more i want from my church, something more i want from my social life. i’ve typed about how i’ve been underwhelmed with my job lately. i may have touched on how i’ve been not totally satisfied with church. a couple of weeks ago, i talked to the leader of the singles ministry if he met people outside of church. i was kind of looking for maybe a discipleship type deal. so i got his email and later in the week emailed him. i ended up getting a reply from some office worker with open appointments during the day. i of course work during the day, so the fact that the times to meet him were during the day, plus the email was from some other guy disappointed me. i guess that’s a problem with mega churches, there’s someone to do everything so there’s not much of a personal touch to some things. its hard to build real relationships when a lot of things are handled by other people, like email.

fast forward to tonight…i had met up with this guy zach at the mute math show. i had met him about a year ago but never really hung out with him or anything. i also talked to his friend jacob, and by the end of the night they had invited me to zach’s house for a small group. jacob even described it as “we just get together and throw darts and drink beer. but its with other believers, so its cool.” FINALLY, realness! so tonight i went and it was great. i wasn’t really looking for a structured bible study or a group where conversations were forced or driven a certain way. i probably got more out of tonight’s discussions than the last year of bible studies. so i think i’ve finally found a group i can count on to build me up. somewhere i can go be real with people and truly believe they care. it was awesome, and i’m very thankful for it. so maybe it won’t end my search completely, but it may satisfy my desire for more in my church life. cool.