tonight begins Part 2 of the 2009 Ryan Adams road trip. from the first waking moments of today though i felt spent. it’s been a long week. the drama leading up to tonight’s show was mind bogglingly dumb. my 4th backup person to go with me bailed yesterday. here’s what happened, at least what i was told. on the way back from the BR show last week, i got into an argument with girl X over something about church and youth group. girl Y was driving, but was not involved. apparently in the two weeks since then, girl X has harbored bad feelings towards me, but instead of talking to me about it, has talked to girl Y. girl Y feels overwhelmed. girl Y was going to be my 4th backup for the show tonight, but emailed me yesterday to tell me she didn’t want to go anymore because she feels it would be hurting girl X’s feelings. not that she had too much going on at work, not that she didn’t have the money, it was that she really wanted to go but because of all that’s happened didn’t feel comfortable going to a concert with girl X. i’m not in high school anymore, and neither are girls X and Y. unfortunately, no amount of discussion could get girl Y to put everything aside and go have fun tonight. none of it makes any sense to me. when there’s a bigger picture going on (like carpooling to work, or going to a concert) i can put those things on hold in spite of how i feel to still accomplish the bigger picture.

coming through in the clutch though, Chad’s going to accompany me in the 5th row. expect some badass pictures as a result.