my life//in medias res*

God give me patience, but HURRY!

November 29th, 2004 at 1:44 am by sillyjoe (Life and Introspection)

That always made laugh. My dad’s used the phrase several times. Crazy preachers. Patience is perhaps the hardest thing for me to have. I can’t seem to be patient in any part of my life, whether it be spiritual, social, physical…anything. I’ve always been impatient when it comes to finding a girl. I know, I know…I’m only 18. But when I was in high school, I wanted a girl. I wanted one bad. And I wanted her right then. I was tired of seeing all my friends dating, while I was the token single guy. And I HATED it. Throughout high school, I was DESPERATE for companionship. I’m a lot better about such things now. It doesn’t worry me near as much. But there are times when I find myself sitting alone in my room playing my guitar or reading a book or listening to a cd or watching tv…and I feel lonely. And impatient. “Why?” I ask God…”Why can’t I have someone to share parts of my life with now?”

Tonight, I was having one of those nights, when this song came up on my playlist. And it tore me up.

God, give me patience…and take your time.

“patience” by bleach

patience only comes when you spend your time just waiting
you’re the only one that’s worth the wait i think your great
and writing melodies
sometimes seems to ease
all the stuff that’s built up inside

i won’t embrace the things that i have done
patience waits for what we will become
oh it’s so much more i know
that it’s so worth waiting for.

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Holy crap…

November 26th, 2004 at 12:12 am by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity, The Food Connoisseur)

I ate way too much today.

Happy Turkey Time.

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I am an ungrateful soul.

November 22nd, 2004 at 11:32 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity)

Thanksgiving is just a couple of days away. And it’s around this time of year when I realize just how unthankful and ungrateful I am. So often I complain (and so often on this blog) about how my life isn’t how I wish it to be.

I think I’m learning (slowly as it may be) to live my life the way it is, and that if I continue to do so, it may become the life I want it to be. I don’t know.

This feels like one of those rambling nights.

A short post, I know…I may have more to come…who knows.

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Desert island, top five…

November 20th, 2004 at 11:55 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity)

So tonight I saw a movie that I had to immediately enter into my top 5 movies of all time.

The movie?

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

It’s still marinating, but I’ll post some in-depth thoughts and a full review later.

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make up my mind

November 20th, 2004 at 10:25 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity, Music)

in lieu of recent happenings, i sat down to write last night….

How could I have been so naïve again?
I gotta stop listening to all of my friends
They keep getting me into mess after mess
They keep making me chase dress after dress

Don’t know what I want anymore
So I guess I’ll just pick up my feet from the floor
And walk on outta here and find a better place
And I’m gonna make haste

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I’m an idiot

November 19th, 2004 at 10:50 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity)

never let your friends tell you who you should go out with.

and never listen to your friends when they tell you the girl you like feels the same way about you.

trust me on this one.

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“Quiet Christmas”

November 16th, 2004 at 8:13 pm by sillyjoe (Around the Interweb)

Please read Eric Peters’s essay, “Quiet Christmas”, here

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Goodbye Excitement, Hello Paranoia

November 15th, 2004 at 2:36 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity)

So I haven’t been able to talk to her since Wednesday. I haven’t been able to get hold of her, and she hasn’t even replied to text messages.

And now I’m paranoid that she’s avoiding me.

Stupid brain.

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Stupid Chain Hoaxes

November 15th, 2004 at 2:32 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity, Around the Interweb)

Dear AIM users,
Because of our overloading of our servers, we are being forced to extract our non-active AIM users. Because this is a free service, AOL has exceeded the budget for the AIM service. We are asking that you send this exact message to 20 other AIM users to ensure us that you’re an active AIM user. Our system tracking devise will pick up this message to keep you on our active list. You have 72 hours to complete this task or your service will be cancelled immediately. Starting January 1st, 2005, we will be charging a small fee for registering of a screen name for AIM. Thank you for your time and for using AOL or AIM.

I received this stupid hoax message 15 times this morning.

Gah.

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The pursuit continues…

November 10th, 2004 at 9:59 pm by sillyjoe (Adventures in Randomosity)

So Katie’s been sick since the concert.

We haven’t been able to talk on the phone because she’s had no voice.

Well, today I decided I’d do something sweet, so I went to Wal-Mart and picked up a rose.

Then went to her school about ten minutes before school ended, and put it on her car with a note saying “I hope this brightens your day a little”

Then I went and hid.

She found it, freaked out and ran inside.

I was like…uhhh…I’m right here.

She came back outside, I jumped out and said HEY, we talked for a while, she had to go to work…end of story.

But she smiled.

And I was happy about that.

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