Paul wrote on his blog about being expendible as a worship leader. It got me thinking about my goals as a “Director of Worship”, versus the reality that I am currently experiencing.
Ideally, my goal in being a director of worship is to become expendible. A big part of me doesn’t really care about being “the guy” up in front every Sunday. Yes, I enjoy it. Like any musician, I enjoy performing (more on that later). But I’d much rather facilitate the gifts of others in the congregation. I’d like to use my training and abilities in a pastoral fashion to help members of the church bless their fellow congregants with their gifts. If that means that I end up not playing and singing on a regular basis, so much the better!
So, that’s my goal. But that’s not my reality at the church I’m at. Where I am, I’m struggling to have a backing piano player (a necessity for a church that LOVES traditional hymns out of good ol’ Trinity), much less have a larger team of musicians and up-and-coming leaders. It’s actually quite frustrating, as it’s hard to believe that there are really that few people with gifts in the church. I’ve even recieved multiple comments from people in the congregation wanting to know why there aren’t more people playing with me. As very few people have come forward to let me know of their interest, I’m being forced into the awkward place of holding open auditions. Auditions – especially in a church context – is one of those things that sounds like a great idea to anyone who’s never done it. In reality, they normally turn into 4 or 5 people of moderate to poor talent coming forward. This places the auditioner in the awkward place of having to tell the person that their talents are not at a place to be readily used. But that’s not the most awkward part. After you announce auditions, people expect to see a change. People expect to see others assisting with worship, and when they aren’t there, more questions come up of people wanting to know “why?”.
Really, I’d love to be expendible as a worship leader. Unfortunately, that’s not my current station.